“May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art — write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.” — Neil Gaiman
I have the feeling that I missed New Years, that line in the sand that says we can have a “do over”. The old year is gone and we can start over.
I have been sick since New Year’s Eve and feeling very sad that I couldn’t reflect on the past year with checks and balances against the resolutions, goals and aspirations I had for 2010. I had what I tought was a solid list of self-improvement. Lose 25 pounds, start a meditation practice to achieve mindfulness, exercise more, be more authentic, write daily and create more art. I achieved some but, many, many more things were achieved.
It is stated that “88% of well-meaning New Year’s revelers will “fail” in achieving the resolutions they set out as a goal at 12:01 AM, January 1st.” ……. Richard Wiseman, a psychologist with Britain’s University of Hertfordshire.
We also need to remember that New Year’s day is only a marker. Any day, the new moon, your birthday, anniversary – can serve as a marker for change. Every breath is a chance for a new choice.
If we fail, it’s like Jack Kornfield says in Mediation for Beginners. If you were training a puppy you would not be so hard on them. Just put them back in the same place and say “sit, stay” Offer yourself compassion and unconditional love instead of belittling. Look for the lesson and offer gratitude.
During 2010 I found that on the way to self-improvement through my practice I found myself and learned to like her.
I learned that Creator has a plan for me that is greater than I can see, and that everyday if I follow my practice I’m fulfilling that plan. In 2011 I will continue to do so with as much consciousness as I am capable of achieving.
I will continue to follow the path that my practice opens for me.
In 2010 I learned that I have as much abundance in my life that I need. If I continue in 2011 with less attachment to that abundance it will flow with simplicity. I will trust that Creator knows best how to deliver everything I need.
In 2010 I learned to invest in and develop forgiveness for myself and the harm that occurred in my past. In 2011 I will invest more in myself and be open to the support that I so deeply desire. I will continue to follow my heart with loving kindness, mindfulness and happiness…. In the words of Pema Chodron
“We can drop the fundamental hope that there is a better “me” who one day will emerge. We can’t just jump over ourselves as if we were not there.”
I will stop the subtle form of aggression against myself that self-improvement actually is and be happy with me who already is.
It will be a revolution of sorts!! Surprise yourself. and, oh, happy YOU.