Category Archives: Thoughts

My Driveway and Patience

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It’s been a long day. A full day of work and a Food Policy council meeting after work. I love being on the council; food is what I do. I can’t feed the world’s hungry but I can make sure that no one in my community goes hungry. I believe in sustainable, 100 mile diet, local, non GMO, organic, free range , grass-fed and all the good things. I love food and cooking, I love to try new things and tastes. I read this blog post today and it really resonated with me. I concur that I am not a “foodie” either.

When I am tired,  my drive home, my 25 km driveway usually brings me back to the present. I am so grateful to have the time  and the view from my windshield. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t see some form of wildlife, farm life or nature that delights me. It is so easy to become habituated to our surroundings. Living on auto-pilot, lost in our minds.

See what I see on  my driveway and everything becomes connected.

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“Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience.”

Emerson

Brave For My Granddaughters and Merida

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I sign the usual petitions polar bears, wolves, pipelines, environmental things mostly and I am also passionate around women’s rights. My  very public participation this year in V-Day and Vagina Monologues was  outside my comfort zone.

I signed the petition last week put out by A Mighty Girl, to keep the Disney character Merida, from the movie Brave unprincesfied. To keep her from becoming a sexualized, made up, hair glossed, lips rouged, dress tightened, breasts more defined looking princess: more in line with all the other Disney princesses who have lost their innocence and some their

A Mighty Girl is a blog I read regularly. It has great information on books, characters, toys, music and clothing for young girls. It is in-line with what I value for my granddaughters.

My two-year old granddaughter Stella loves Merida and the movie Brave. My seven-year old granddaughter likes it as well but she is not easily influenced by television, movies etc. She doesn’t watch TV at home and all movies are family time with lots of discussion.

Stella’s second birthday last week had a “Brave” theme and Merida came to the party. There was fishing, archery, a bear, a castle and the boys had as much fun as the girls, after all it was a party for a two-year old. Her dad even dressed in a kilt!

I identified with Brave when I watched it. I loved her spunk as well as her faults. There were great teachable moments in the movie. It reminded me so much of the girl I once was. Tree climbing, bike riding, red hair flying in the wind tom boy. Fifty years later and thirty years of working in the prestige cosmetic industry I know a thing or two about marketing to women and selling you something that you don’t really need but that you hope will make you happy or change your life.

Girls  (and boys) need good strong role models and parents as the primary educator are responsible for what their children learn. As a grandmother, and with  my disposable income I know I can vote with my feet and refuse to buy those consumables that don’t empower my grandchildren to be smart, confident and courageous.

I think we might have won a battle, but maybe not the war.http://www.amightygirl.com/blog/?p=3443

If my granddaughter can always be this joyful, my work will be done!

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Garden Ornaments

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Who needs garden ornaments when you have these?

Cinderella’s Last Bath ~ Spring

Spring has come to the grasslands. It wasn’t a particularly cold winter; just lots of snow. Once the weather warmed up everything else warmed up too. Calves are born in the fields, the wild horses bring their new foals down from the hills, trees bud, water flows, hummingbirds return, old cats get to sleep in the sun. We live in the sub-alpine just above the grasslands. I work in town, where the original settlements were built on the delta at the meeting of two rivers. The two major ecosystems, grasslands and forests, form a boundary between the gently rolling plateau and the vast, rugged highlands just to the east  Soil is rich and the climate is warm; semi arid. I experience two springs. The one in town and the one at home, another 900 feet above. We marvel at the difference. It snowed last Monday but this week it has been 30 degrees C. in town and about 25 degrees here.

Gardening has started. Cinderella our Muscovy duck, now at least 10 years old, moved out of the barn last week. It was time to come out into the sunshine, wash off the dust of winter and start anew. Being a duck, she loves to swim. We have a kid’s pool for her and I filled it with water. Her tail wagged back and forth as she waddled over to the pool and hopped in. I am sure it felt magnificent. Spring is like that; the ability to start anew, clean, refreshed, reborn.

The next day she died. I found her lifeless beside her pool. I am so glad she had time for one more swim and to feel the warm sun again.  It’s  really all we have. The moment.

Sophie, The Pig

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I read a very interesting blog today from blogger Shreve Stockton. I actually get an e-mail from the author every day because she has raised a coyote from puppy hood. I thoroughly enjoy the pictures of him everyday. Her blog post In Defense of the Family Rancher really made me reflect on why I do what I do and why I eat meat.

This time of year and living on the cusp of the grasslands, I see calves born every day. I pass through a ranchers farm every morning. Last week he was plowing paths through the snow in the big field and I knew that he would be bringing the cows down shortly to calve. It’s closer to his house and barn in case anything goes wrong. These are free range grass-fed cattle. Farther down the road there are cows everywhere. This is reserve land and the aboriginals leave their cattle out all year. Again they are free range, grass-fed.

I don’t buy my meat from any of these farmers as I prefer buffalo and usually buy one every year. I just find the meat tastier, with less fat.
The ranch I buy from is owned by a couple from Switzerland. I know they love their animals. We are welcome at the farm anytime. There is nothing cuter that buffalo calves. One animal is enough to feed us for a year and to share with friends. We supplement it with venison (in trade, no shooting for me), free range chickens, ducks, wild turkey and trout (available all year, if you like ice fishing).

I could easily be a vegetarian. I have learned that you are a lot happier if you eat something living everyday, fresh picked from the garden. I am addicted to farmers markets.

What really gave me a passion for meat was Sophie, the pig. Her life was changed when she fell out of a truck on to the road in the city. The driver must not have noticed as she was left stunned on the pavement. A passing motorist picked her up and took her to the SPCA. They had no where for her so they knew that we had acreage and a barn, (we had already taken a family of goats, seized due to cruelty) so they brought her up to our little farm and dropped her off. They then left a phone message to say she was there. What a surprise when we go home. She fit it in well with the goats and the barn rabbit, so we kept her. She was a Yorkshire pig. A friend said they liked raisins, so I fed her raisins every night on her dinner. She also like skim milk powder sprinkled on her dinner.

She severely chastised you if they were not forthcoming.

Sophie loved the barn rabbit Oreo. During the winter she would go into the barn at night and cover herself with straw. Oreo would cuddle up to her in her armpit. She loved to help you with your chores and stole your toque or your hammer every chance she got.

Sophie learned to do agility alongside the dogs.  She learned to do weave poles by following my hand that had raisins in it. Just like the dogs.

Sophie grew to be 200 lbs. at two years old. Pigs are not pets. They get cranky and stubborn as they age. Pigs have their own expectations and Sophie wanted to be bred. She started to break boards on the barn and the fence.We were told it was time to butcher  her.  What an awful word.

It was a teary day when we sent Sophie off to the butcher. I cried buckets. We picked up the meat a week or so later. I wasn’t keen on eating it but what a terrible waste if I hadn’t. It was the best tasting pork ever.

Sophie lived her life well-loved.

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Read the blog post. Know what you eat, who produced it and how they treated their animals. And I don’t just mean meat. It will be a better world.

Love God

To be six years old and the secret is so simple. Love god, creator, buddha. Love is the operative. I adore the way my granddaughter created this picture. She doodles constantly and I regularly get an envelope full of her art work. Sometimes I get full-blown painted canvases. I love to look at it and wonder what motivated this piece.

I love the Franciscan look to god, the hearts,peace sign, stars, earth and planets. What more creations are in that little spirit, I so admire.love-god

What We Forget

I didn’t want to think about Newtown but President Obama brought it up today in his inaugural address. Even his Inaugural poet Richard Blanco did the same in his poem One Light.

“…All of us as vital as the one light we move through, the same light on blackboards with lessons for the day: equations to solve, history to question, or atoms imagined, the `I have a dream’ we keep dreaming, or the impossible vocabulary of sorrow that won’t explain the empty desks of 20 children marked absent today, and forever.”

Sen. Richard Blumenthal, D-Conn., later said Obama had “evoked Newtown as a very powerful symbol. He clearly senses that it has a profound historical significance, even larger than the 26 lives lost, in what it could mean for the nation.” Blumenthal added, “He enshrined Newtown in our history.”

In 1965 I lost a good childhood  friend to a mass shooting. A father came home and shot his wife and 6 children and then shot himself. I haven’t thought about it in years. Newtown brought it all back to me. I remember reading that someone had said that the best thing we could do was to remember the names of the children, even if only one.

I remember her name. Noreen Hogue, she was my friend.

A Google search revealed sadly that all that is remembered from the day is her father’s name and the extent of his crimes.. He will always be in the history books and talked about and remembered as a mass murder. He will figure into discussions about gun control. She has vanished.

I choose to remember her and our friendship. Please remember the children.

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Inaugural quotes taken from: http://www.ctpost.com/local/article/Newtown-shootings-remembered-at-inauguration-4212162.php

The Puzzle That is My Pond

“There are no extra pieces in the universe. Everyone is here because he or she has a place to fill, and every piece must fit itself into the big jigsaw puzzle”
Deepak Chopra

Two things I really enjoy: one is the sound of water moving and the other is looking at and picking up rocks. I live by a lake and have a beautiful rushing creek running through the back side of our acreage. It is so peaceful to sit on the back deck and listen to the creek and the birds. I also enjoy the front of our house because that is where my beautiful garden is and I spend quite a bit of time out there working. When I lived at the coast I had a massive in ground fish pond surrounded by lush west coast landscaping; bamboo, rhododendrons, azalea,roses, magnolias etc. It was filled by friendly, happy koi. None of that works here.

My husband think I should have been happy with the creek, and I am. I just wanted the sound and beauty of a pond in the front. I found and old pond liner and decided my mountain pond would become a reality. I couldn’t put it in the ground as it is rigid and would crack in the -30 C winters. I decided above ground would do but how could I make it look interesting, keep the cats out yet make it safe for the dogs who like to drink from it and wash their dirty tennis balls in it.

Rock-harvesting

One thing we have here in the mountains is an ample supply of rocks. More get delivered every year or so from the gravel truck who dumps his load on the driveway. I also have a large collection of, in my opinion,  pretty rocks that I have picked up on my hikes.

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One of my favourite hikes with the dogs is along a dyke that was built from soil moved from Agate Bay and after a fresh rain you can usually find unborn agates poking up.

I priced out brick and Allan blocks to surround the pond, way to expensive. then one day it dawned on me. I would use all those rocks to build the surround. Every day I would add a layer. It was kinda like figuring out a puzzle. What would fit where to build the little wall. How to place them so they wouldn’t fall. It became a very mindful yet relaxing exercise. If I found a new interesting rock I would add it as well, friends started bringing me rocks. None of the rocks are cemented so we have to be careful not to kick  or bump into the pond, or else they all come tumbling down. Another great exercise in mindfulness. I never get upset if someone knocks the rocks down, I just let them put it back together again. Everyone loves it.  It can be a solitary or group activity. The only ones who haven’t knocked any rocks down are the dogs.

While meditating next to the pond it always makes me think of how things change in an instance and  how we all fit into this puzzle.

Do you eat your smarties?

Do you eat them very slowly? Do you eat them very fast?  Do you eat the red ones last?

I have been thinking a lot lately about delayed gratification. Probably because I picked up The Road Less Travelled to read at the gym. It was one of  his four disciplines, a complex task to overcome neurosis and character defects.

1. delaying of gratification

2.acceptance of responsibility

3.dedication to truth

4.balance

As I have moved to this crone age I  sometimes find myself wanting to reach the end result more quickly in case I run out  of time.  It’s  the desire to eat the icing first. To reach my search for the peace and liberation of my soul immediately!  I find I have to pull myself back into the now. I also find  I have to refrain from multi tasking all the time. Being the type of person who never stops in a day until the list is finished I find I need to take time to just think, just be.

And I like  just being.

And  thinking is taking me interesting places, like re reading  Scott Peck and through him back to Jung and now to native spirituality.

I find myself back at Arts 1 at UBC 40 years ago. How did I get lost and how did I find my way back?

Doesn’t matter. I’m here.